If I told you
How many times
I’ve sat alone
On the shower floor,
You’d cry too.
I am so thirsty for emotional and physical intimacy with someone
I want to nuzzle their neck and lay entwined on my bed and lazily kiss their lips and make them food get to know every single curve and contour they have
I want to touch someone with my finger tips and make them feel loved
A man looks good when you turn your head to the side trying to decide how so much sexy can be standing in front of you.Every Woman who visually fucked the man of her dreams.
Like a regular library, but open 24 hours and there are bunk beds and things to sleep on, and all the books you can read, and a little booth that sells tea.
Just somewhere you could go if you have insomnia or are lonely in the middle of the night, or need somewhere to hang with friends after hours, or just want to be in a public space at night that’s not a bar or club.
Just last night I posted The Concept Of White Supremacy Involving Sociopathy Is NOT Ableism. The comment above is just one of the many daily examples of the sociopathy involved in White supremacy that I face. I simply do not show you most of them. You all who read my blog have no idea what comes to my email, Twitter DM and comments for moderation on the regular.
This White woman (also @csassylion on Twitter; why I mentioned handle I’ll explain later) believes that I should die because I defended Black people from anti-Blackness from non-Black people of colour. Non-Black people of colour who are anti-Black facilitate White supremacy and their “allies” will show up to defend them. Even so, the conversation was among people of colour and not for a White woman to enter or try to control or derail. But these people think “all public space” = “all our space” because of White privilege, whether online or offline.
This White woman doesn’t know what half of the words mean in that post or any of mine, admitted that she doesn’t even read them and also added a comment upon reblog excusing the anti-Blackness and abuse from non-Black people of colour. She also sent an ableist email to me before this one that read "I think you have a personality disorder." Sociopaths like this who are ableist are the ones who don’t want their sociopathy pointed out and some of them will even claim that it is “ableism” to point it out. Well, I already ripped that myth apart in the essay in the first paragraph.
I told this White woman to leave me alone several times, she responds with ableism about “personality disorder.” She doesn’t know her ass from her elbow and I’ve studied mental health so this is exceptionally comical to me; it goes to show that Whiteness itself is viewed as a skill set or expertise. White women who choose to be racist have zero self-awareness or self-control. Instead of minding her own goddamn business and going about her day, she entered a conversation (a problem I deal with from White women every single day) not her business and has been harassing me for the last two hours. This racist also has posted my tweets on her blog to “prove” how…upset I am about her racism?
What does that prove? Why on Earth wouldn’t someone respond to libel against their work being used to justify anti-Blackness like mine was? Explain why the last two hours of this White woman’s time has been dedicated to harassing me in defense of non-Black PoC who are anti-Black?
And of course the usual White supremacist cluelessness fills her blog such as "do something to make the world a better place." Irrelevant jar of rancid mayo and head full of air being that you are, this is a standard fallacious stance not based on anything. You have no idea of what I do, done, achieved. If I asked you to list what I have done in the last decade while you were blogging anime, you could not state it. Why? Because you have no idea what I do. You simply know that I am a Black woman and thereby your target for ignorance.
Someone explain—other than racism and entitlement to space solely because conversations occur in public—why is this White woman involved? Again, PoC were discussing anti-Blackness and some PoC were being anti-Black. Why is this White woman involved?
When non-Black PoC ever come to me again about “solidarity,” they’re going to have to address this. Because a non-Black PoC attacked Black people and another non-Black PoC decided to degrade my work to justify that first person’s anti-Blackness, I now have to deal with a completely unrelated to the issue barnacle parasite of an airheaded racist White woman. I won’t respond to this filth anymore; I felt it was important that this be public, however, so non-Black PoC can see what their anti-Blackness awakens, even if they do not have the same privilege as Whites. Anti-Blackness still harms Black women like me.
Here is going to be the starting place before any non-Black PoC can even speak to me about “solidarity” ever again. This is the price of anti-Blackness and until it is interrogated fully and deconstructed, non-Black PoC pose a risk to my safety and well-being as a Black woman. I can no longer offer the benefit of the doubt; anyway I myself said skepticism is the approach to dealing with privilege and the potential of anti-Blackness to occur.
And as I put on the original post that this White woman derailed, I don’t address “all” trolls nor is it my job to “ignore anti-Blackness” or use a “nice tone” with someone who wants me dead. Any suggestion of this is simply evidence confirming my post about the sociopathy that is involved in White supremacy.
I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell.Walt Whitman (via childoflust)
To get over one addiction, you have to become addicted to something else.(via forever-and-alwayss)